This is a weird feeling, i like the girl, I’m 25 years old, had lots of experience in life and even near death experience, and I’m still scared to express my feelings for TC.

   Hindi ako natakot pag may kalokohan akong gagawin. Hindi ako natatakot na umuwi ng umaga ng lasing na lasing. Hindi ako natatakot. Pero bakit ngayon, parang feeling ko nauutal ako at di alam ang sasabihin pag nakikita ko siya. huli ko itong naramdaman nung highschool ako, yung tinatawag nilang butterfly sa stomach.

   Mukhang OK naman kami kasi ilang beses na kami lumabas at nagkulitan. Pero bakit ganun natiotiope pa din ako. Siguro takot lang ako sa rejection, na magbago ang sitwasyon naming dalawa.

   Pero eto ang mas nakakatakot, mukhang nasasanay na akong manahimik na lang sa aking nararamdaman. Naks. Ang corny, feeling ko hindi ako ito. But then again, ika nga ni Amanda Peet sa movie na “A lot like love”, it ain’t love ’til your ready to sound foolish…or something like that. I don’t know if this is love pero i think its a lot like it (hehe, borrowing the lines of ashton kutcher in the same movie).

   I’ve had relationships before, pero bakit ganun. I wooed a lot before, pero bakit ganun. Well, as saying goes, “even though you’ve gone through the fire it doesn’t mean that you won’t get burned.”

   I get to meet her only during the weekends, pero she’s in my mind everyday…where are you courage? Haaay, naghihintay sa pagkakataong hindi darating. Everytime we wait for the right moment, there will always come an incident that will reveal our thoughts destroying the perfect moment. Perfect does not exist in this world.

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